My grandchildren where all born here. They don’t know Korea very well so I thought if I wore a hankbok then they’d have to think about Korea. If my grandchildren see my hanbok they will be reminded, “I am a Korean person too.” They were born here in America but they have Korean blood flowing in them.”
This is my second time (having my funerary portrait taken). I’ve changed since then so I had it in mind to retake the photo. When I would go to a funeral, I would see a portrait of the individual carried up, and the person always looked so nice and peaceful in the photo. I realized that funeral portraits depicted the individuals so peacefully, and I wanted to get my own portrait taken nicely for my children and family so they wouldn’t be burdened and have good memories. I’d like them to say that he was someone who worked hard and did nothing to be ashamed of.
I’d be happy if they saw my portrait and didn’t hate me.
I’d like people to remember that I was industrious, worked hard and tried my best.
I didn’t prepare especially, my husband told me to wear makeup but when I am remembered by my children, they’ll remember a mom who didn’t wear make up because I lived my life without it. So to better remind my children of their easygoing mother, I didn’t prepare, I came as I am.
When I raised my kids I wanted to be a relaxed mom for my kids, but looking back now that they are grown, I don’t think I was! I nagged too much, but even now I want to try to show that I was an open, relaxed mother (in my portrait). When they see me I want them to feel open.
I’ve taken a funeral portrait before, but that one is a little outdated now. It’s still hanging up at home, but I look a little too young in that photo so it won’t do. This is my third time taking a funeral portrait. Of the funerals that I’ve been to, there has only been a handful in which the person had a portrait that was taken recently before their death. Of the many I’ve been to, I haven’t seen any portraits that really carry the essence of the person. So I would like my portrait to portray my self exactly how I am, so that when people come to say goodbye, they can really feel like they are saying goodbye to me.
From my loved ones, I’d like for them to think that I was a person who was necessary.